God’s Waiting Room
Who would think that waiting for a phone call could be so hard? As I wait for the report from my precious husband’s MRI, I’m deeply aware that the results will have a great impact on many more lives than my own…lives like Gary’s dad (who recently lost his beloved wife of 63 years), our children, grandchildren and precious family, our “framily” (friends who have become as dear as family) and the countless number of people that Gary’s life has touched over the years.
So, what can I do when I find myself in God’s Waiting Room?
I’m reminded of David, the Psalmist, who had countless experiences in this hard place. We see a perfect example of this in Psalm 119:30-32.
I have chosen to be faithful; I have determined to live by your regulations. I cling to your laws. LORD, don’t let me be put to shame! I will pursue your commands, for you expand my understanding. (Psalm 119:30-32)
So how will I spend my time while I wait? Like David,
I will remember God’s faithfulness in the past and say that I’ve chosen to be faithful to Him because He has been faithful to me. His character hasn’t changed in this anxious moment, so I can trust Him, remembering that He has always been the One who has lovingly carried me.
I will also cling to God’ promises in the present as David did in his moments of waiting. I will remain confident that the Lord is in control today, just as He was yesterday and that He won’t let me down.
And finally, I will pursue the Holy One with all my heart in the future, no matter what the scans reveal. I will greatly rejoice for the wonderful days ahead of us if the spot is benign; and I’ll have hope in the promise that Gary will be dancing in heaven just a few seconds (in light of eternity) before me if his cancer has spread. Either way, our loving Father will be glorified
I am determined to worship God in the good times and the bad, knowing that the Holy One loves us more than we can ever imagine.